Omg this is driving me nuts lately. I can’t take this anymore. Bingit tau, bingit!
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
I hear those negative things all the time. Can you just chill?
To feel like you’ve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one’s there to save you
No you don’t know what it’s like
Nothing i do is right. I get “Kau Diam!” everytime.
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you’re bleeding
Nobody knows cause they’re always out, out, out, out, out. I know pasal aku yang slalu kene.
No you don’t know what it’s like
When nothing feels all right
You don’t know what it’s like
To be like me
Put the phone down, and dont pick up. Rest for a day, at LEAST A DAY. The world won’t end. These phonecalls are making things worse! Everytime i hear the phone ring, i feel like smashing it to pieces.
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Psss; Kak Shiela’s makeup was the hardest to remove. (: She’s a zeBRA. (: (photos taken 3 months ago, Adi’s 2nd Birthday)
Family Chalets, Picnics, Parties, Hangouts. Sigh, it has been a looooong time since the Jahara family went for outings like this. Together with cousins, Aunties and Ucles and family friends. Haiyaaaaaaaa. The best was the family chalet, macam skola organise games. Sampai orang go out of their own rooms to see us playing. Hahaha.
BUT.
There will be another outing This weekend! YAAAAAAYYYY. Seafood dinner, all of us. My uncle who won ALOT, and i mean ALOT, $**** from a lucky draw by Sheng Shiong, wants to blanja The Jahara Family seafood. Alot okay. Thank you UNCLEEEEEEEEEE! im excited. (:
&how i wish the screams in the house would stop, maybe, just for awhile. ):
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Gemini Horoscope for 05 November 2008
Today you are much more open to using your mind in new ways and thinking through foreign (or even uncomfortable!) ideas. It might be frustrating to figure out some of the heavier concepts right now, but it will also be very rewarding. Your brain needs some exercise, and you are going to be in a position to give it a fantastic workout!
Oh im gonna wake up alright. Today’s gonna be tough.
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The tv has been blasting on CNN since Aba got back. And the names that i always here are Obama and Mccain. Hhahaha. Aba was hoping Obama won. Me tooooooo.
Yesterday visited Nek Aji again, this time with Aba. Then drove to kakak’s workplace and fetched her, then drove to JP to eat. The kuay teow not as nice seh. :/ For a second i tought i was dressed like a pregnant woman you know. Maybe that’s the reason people stare at me. Hahaha! What stare2. Well Jyeah im ‘pregnant’. -.- But it was reallyyyyyyy funny. To tell you the truth, i was laughing at myself all the way. (: So no i wasnt feeling awkwards or shy. Hey, at least im still wearing clothes! (:
Dance will be laterrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr at 2! WOO WIPPEEEEEEEEEEEE! So long nv dance edi. Be prepared for cramps. And i heard the steps for SYF09 is tough. VERY TOUGH. I tried it out, dammit sakit sia. I dont know if im gonna survive today’s practice.
“Menari tidak kira tinggi atau rendah, tapi kebolehannya. Remember that” - Abg Khai
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We visited Grandma who just got back from the hospital (Aba’s Side). Get well soon grann. Spent abt 2 hours or so at her house and we went to Burger King at Safti for takeaway and headed home. Guess what Me, Abang and Kakak did. SUPERNATURAL MARATHON LAH! Abo. What else kan. (: Dean’s dead. ): One year for him is up and he’s DEAD. OH NO MY DEAN. And that Bela girl is super irritating. She’s rotting in hell now but she sure doesnt deserve it. Her time was up too. She has her own reasons of doing what she has done. Poor thing. Dean is in hell. And he’s going to become a demon. Good or bad, idk. I wish he became a demon like Ruby, if he’s gonna be one. Ruby’s one hell of a good demon i tell you. A GOOD demon. Ey, rare seh. Eh why am i talking about Supernatural? Anyway, we finished season 3. already! which was like.. 24 episodes. Imagine. Seasons 1-3. 72 episdoes altogether. HAHAHA. Okay, now we just have to wait for Aba to bring back home Season 4! MUAHHAHAH! I can’t wait. But Sam is gonna be alone. Dean’s dead. Oh nono! Still have Bobby. Oh Bobbayyy. This show is so violent i tell you. ANd my heart jumped every few minutes cuz they keep like shocking you with the music and all. Im sure gonna have sore throat now, after the end of 3 seasons. *ehhem*
Im having chinese conversational class tomorrow. Oh no i think the class is kinda useless. Actually, we completed the workshop during school, but great. MOE wanted to continue this boring workshop. Nvm, i have a chance to learn chinese. Ni Hao Ma. Ni Hui Jia ah ni. Kannina. (OMG WTH. KILL ME if i were to say tht.) hahaha. Everybody swears. I’ll swear when i really have too. I dont do it for fun. 
WAN AN! (:
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I went to watch High School Musical 3 with dearest kakak just now. It was awesome! I cried all the way throughout the movie. Yes, call me a crybaby. But oh god. The movie is so touching and sweet and romantic and. Sigh. I wish i had that life. But, what to do. I have to live my own. (: The whole theatre was like a school excursion i tell you. A school even watched the movie. All girls. Maybe it’s an all-girls school. I dont know. Haha. If i were to watch it again, i tell you plus chop i would cry, AGAIN. -.- I can even cry by listening to my current blogsong okay. So sad. And sweet at the same time. But by listening to the song, i think about the things that i can’t have, the things that are not given to me, and i still can live with it. Imagine life so wonderful. And having someone there to just wipe away your tears. Be with you during the night time. Cuddle you up during cold rainy days. Surprise you with little cupcakes. Send you sweet cards by mail. SWEEEEEEEEET KANNNNNNN? (: heeee. Can change your life and how you feel. Hahaha. Crap lah i tell you.
Hehe. melt. Thanks for all those things. imy.!
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This is how i look late at night. Suppose to watch Supernatural but kakak’s busy with her work. I dont dare to watch alone okay. So the seram. And violent. Anw, My shorts with Husna are ready, only to collect them from her. YEaaaayyyyyy! Anw, things with friends are on the rocks now but this time, i dont wanna be the one who solves the problem. Or the one who contributed alot but in the end, got thrown out by useless hypocrites who say yes but in the end a complete dissapointment. Sorry to say this to my own friends. Oh well yea, all this while i treat people, and have fun. Nobody ever does that to me. I know i should not look for any returns when i do something for them. But its unfair. Why do i always do something nice and get nothing but a bunch of hatred from you guys, whispers to each other right infront of my face. Hypocrites. &friend, You just lost my TRUST. Happy earning them back.
i dont know what im gonna do now. Until my next biggest dissapointment. Maybe just shut my mouth. Wait, i have been doing that all along actually. Haaaaaaaa.
And, IM NOT CHINESE. Im MALAY MALAY MALAY MALAY. Haiyoyo. Apeks and Nonyas often talk to me in Chinese. Or when workshops in school are held, the instructors always will be like ” Eh? you malay ah? I tot you Chinese! HAHAHAHA!” *crickets* hahaha. but it was funny though.
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HAPPY DEEPAVALI! Okay it’s kinda late for that. Kakak is really bad in like saying beats and sycronizing them. She can’t even clap and sing the “That Thing You Do” beat. Hahha, so cute. K, not. (:
Oh im in a poster. =0
Now i know why i believed in Karma so much. Im glad you got a taste of your own med, beach. I meant the SANDY SANDY beach. You know, like Sentosa Beach. *shows sarcastic face* And if you’re gonna be two-faced, make sure to make one of em pleasant to look at, hun. *live your life plays in the background*
Why is kakak working. I wanna watch Supernatural with you! Oh Dean and Sam. *melt*
Jensen Ackles <3
Ok, im obsessed.
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