Abang is karaoke-ing outside, and kakak’s phone is vibrating. But im too lazy to rush for her calls.
I fell in love with Abang Emir’s camera.
I am eating sour strip candies.
I have a stomach ache.
Bye!
no edits. wont kill for a little fun. 
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Is it friday, oh yes it is!
It’s almost 7 pm and im just here updating my blog. I really have nothing much to talk about but oh well. 4 more days of Puasa then, HARI RAYA! : D Hmph, Not fair. Hari Raya holiday only one day. Then got paper on the same week plak tu. Kalau Chinese New Year, ewah! Bukan maen heboh lagi. Tapi Raya lagi heboh lah.
Im going to get rid of my double-decker bed, soon. So no more making videos showing my bed. This new sofa bed i am planning to buy at Ikea. Wooh nice seh! Purpleeeeeeeeeee. Comfy sumore. Ill buy those flower nightlights and hang them from the ceiling. Fulemak berangan. But nice. Esp when my room is painted purple. With random paper butterflies on the walls. HAHAHHA. ( aikkk.) I can’t wait to go Ikea with sister and go bed-hunting.
School just now was fine. Did math and science mock exam papers. I swear math is hard. Everything algebra algebra. A science chapter is yet to finish. Got a complain about how dirty my class is. Padahal we sweep edi okay! Sheesh. Teachers wanna aim 2/3 je. I know we all playful lah tapi like, tak buat salah pn kene.
I guess ill stop here before someone gets mad.
love, farah.
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Hello. It’s almost 1 am, yea and i can’t sleep. Actually slept at 10.30 but woke up at 12 cuz man. My family members talked so loud, and i mean loud and kecoh outside till it got me frustrated when i was sleeping along in the room. Like, talk so loud. I also cannot sleep. I got school tomorrow ( no today) okay. Sigh. At least laaaa teringatkan lah yang aku ni tengah tido pat dalam bilik. Cakap lah pelan sikit. Terlupe ke dear parents, sister and bro. Da lah lampu bilik ni terang benderang, tk tau nak off kan. Ish ish. Now i really 100% canot sleep. Im wide awake, i can go for a run. Wooh, that’s how awake i am. I dont wish to tell my sister why i was awake cuz nanti, confirm kene marah sia. “Dont be to ni lah that lah”. Sigh man. Ape lah ni eh, kes tkleh tido. -.-
So drank soya bean and ate some chips (yea i dunnow why, i eat chips all the time) to hopefully make me get sleepy and bring me back to sleep. NOT WORKING man. hahaa. Oh well. Imagine that someone first ah. Confirm bleh tido. LOL!
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hello guys.
Im here to make another update. Sometimes i wonder, why are we lazy to study at home, but so anxious to go to the library after every exam? As if you guys study in the library. Buat bising ade lah. Haha. Now i see the point.
I sent my cat, Fifie, for grooming earlier this morning as her fur is very the lebat man! Plus, she has this thing called ‘clumps’ where her fur got tangled up in each other. So we thought they’re just gonna shave like only one area, but the person said if shave only one area, not nice. So shave whole body. Plus, the fur mcm nenek kebayan also. It’s Fifi’s day at the ’spa’ cuz she also gets to bathe and get her nails done ( manicure katekan)! And when i went back to the pet shop to take her home and i swore i was shocked and excited cuz i tot i saw a baby polar bear! She was shaved like woo! soooooo cuteeeeeeee!
I now can’t get my eyes of my cat. i just wanna pull her fur but no fur. Hahahhaa. Sushi for breakfast later. 
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Hello peopleeeeee.
ToDay NotHiNgz MuCh HaPpEnEd . . (okay menyampah dah naik). Today, nothing much happened. It was a “Ckp ape?” day, to sum it all up. Farhan and Marcus kept on taking my pencil case and my wallet and forced me to say “Please Korkor” and “Please Abang Farhan!”. Omg menyampah ok. But just say lah. Or else i won’t get my stuff back! Had Math from the first period. Early in the morning math. Haiya mama. Miss Lee got PMS ah just now in math lesson. Suddenly she acts in such a bad mood and talks in such a loud voice when that person is just beside her. Walao pekak. Az kene jerit dari Miss Lee! Hahahha. Then Namdi didn’t come for P.E ( wohooo!) so did Theory Worksheets on our own. Then Science came and all of us had to start separating our tables and bringing back home our stuff under the table. My bag was really heavy when i got home just now. I still have a little more under my desk and ill have to bring it all home on Monday.
Okay that was one long paragraph i wrote. Hehe. After school, went to Boon Lay Station alone ( it felt like i was alone anyway) to top up my ez-link card. Then i went inside JP and went to the Pet Station ( yes this one i was alone. more better ah. tk sakit hati) cuz i wanna see if they provide grooming for pets. Yes, my cat needs serious grooming. Mama wanted to fetch as my back was really2 pain so waited for her outside JP. Mum asked me why i was alone and i said “No. We separated at Station. But then from there i was alone. Tkp lah. Why?” And she answered “Kesian nye anak aku. Kawan ade pn tak layan kau?” Seriously, to me, kalau ade kawan teman ke tkd kawan teman, makes no hell of a difference to me lah okay. I think it’s just better if i go alone. I wont feel mcm aku ikot korang dari blakang mcm tembok.
Hah kan kan kan. Dah marah. I dont know what these people around me changed to. And they’re all going against me. What the hell lah!
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Hey people.
Sorry for not updating for erm.. 3 days or so. Either ive got no mood or, no mood. Haha, main reason. So now my moodswings are gone ( hopefully ) and im updating this blog of mine.
School just now was fun but painful. Painful as in someone keeps on beating and pushing and slapping me all the time! ( you know who you are! ) Eh pain you know. Ouchs. Hehe. Mdm Shafie did not attend school today and all Home Ec pupils had 3 periods of free periods. And that’s when all my bruises on my body came. Recess then came and as usual, some people had their moods and some dont. Me? Half2 lah boleh dikatekan. I dont know why im always in a bad mood or angry most of the time.
You told me to vent my anger on you cuz you want me to let it all out. I can’t. No not say i can’t, but i dont want to. I somehow can’t get angry on a person when he/she did nothing wrong to me. I know you’re just trying to help. Somehow i screamed at you a little and you kept making me more mad and irritated, which wants me to just kick your head. Please do not do it again as ill surely smack it one day if you continue. See? Vent my anger enough? Hehe, jahat eh. Thanks alot for comforting me. You never fail to.
K STOP! Suppose to follow Wawa after school but i gotta reach home really fast so i skipped it and someone else took over my place. Reached home faster2 then helped to do house chores. See im so hardworking, i know no need to tell. Hehe, kidding k. Some boys got excited (no all. i think including girls also lah. Esp. Wawa) when Miss Nala discussed things during SEL Lesson. But some parts truly reflect on each one of us and rase mcm nak breakdown je but i breakup. (err, ape sia).
I forgive as i know i would have to accept you, friend.
But i dont know if i’ll ever forget.
Please dont do the same thing to me again.
If you despise me, tell it to my face. Dont do such immature things.
I hope you have a brain and be clever enough to think properly.
I hope you dont do the same thing again as you sure wont be pleased if the same thing happens to you.
Take care, friend.
And to (_______________________________), ___ alr!
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This picture is true. I took this picture a last month and edited it just now. This picture really means alot to me and explains what im going through now. I mean every word of it. This is how i feel and im not lying to get attention. But this is just what i have to deal with everyday. Sometimes i just want to be alone, i want to escape from all this. But i know i can’t, it will keep on coming. I want to be different, but i could never fit in. But i guess i have to dare to be different after all.
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I was so unique. Now I feel skin deep. I count on the make-up to cover it all. Crying myself to sleep cause I cannot keep their attention. I thought I could be strong. But it’s killing me. Does someone hear my cry? I’m dying for new life. I want to be beautiful. Make you stand in awe. Look inside my heart, and be amazed. I want to hear you say, Who I am is quite enough. Just want to be worthy of love. And beautiful. Sometimes I wish I was someone other than me. Fighting to make the mirror happy. Trying to find whatever is missing. Won’t you help me back to glory. I want to be beautiful. Make you stand in awe. Look inside my heart,and be amazed. I want to hear you say, Who I am is quite enough. Just want to be worthy of love,
And beautiful what’s wrong with me.
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