song 6.
I am currently in a low down mood now. I just wish to post it here and you know, talk about it. I can’t accept the fact that everything’s on me. I hear things, but i can’t say them. I know some things are meant to kept private. But i can’t lie to my best friend. I just couldnt be quiet beside her, knowing tht something bad is happening, while she is totally clueless but being normal right infront of your face. what about me? are my secrets even SECRETS ANYMORE? Can’t you control your mouth? Now everything’s such in a mess. I’m a mess.
I am controlling. But you guys can’t expect me to just keep quiet about it. What am i suppose to do? everybody makes mistakes. i’m not perfect.
And i hate rumours. Some people do not even know what’s happening, and they go round teasing you saying this and that. Do you know its pressuring to here people say things to your face when it’s suppose to be kept private? Who the hell is spreading this anyway? It’s pressuring. I know its just, “ahh. high school.” But please. I have alot of things in mind, can’t you guys give me a break.
Next, i always have to feel serbe salah. Like if anybody feels like the heck of a dammit sadness, i feel like its me who is responsible for it. If you’re angry, i dont think you should push the anger to me. Like, what am i suppose to be? I can’t fit into your likeness. I am me. You can’t expect me to be your filling space for every mistake you did. Cheer up. I’m trying too.
I know i’m not gaining your trust mumm. Infact, i kinda abused it. But i’m 14. You have to gain ur trust to me. If not, i’m starting to gain it for you. Like abang said. I have to show you that i’m responsible. Independant. If i have offended you in any way, i’m truly very very sorry.
FRIENDS, i hope you know my situation now. it is pressuring for each of us. but if we can just stay together. everything will be fine. }:
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